I didn't blow anything - I did my best. A few minor technical mistakes, but compared to previous attempts, this was far better. Still, the director sent home the people she didn't need to see anymore, and I was one of them. I can't say the guy that is sure to be cast as the lion wasn't significantly better than me, anyway.
So, part of me wants to figure out what I did that was sub-optimal, work on it, and do better next time. Part of me just needs to come to grips with the fact that even though I enjoy theatre a lot, I have no natural talent at all. In anything competitive (and this is LA, everything is competitive!) there's no room for a dilettante like me.
Still pretty happy that I managed to sing well, by golly! It's just that my personal best is still only an objective mediocre. It is what it is, I guess. Maybe I'll get to be a flying monkey after all.