There's a sea of petty crap that's getting me down. And while, intellectually, I know that it will all pass, mostly in a matter of weeks - it's all building up and I feel stressed out beyond endurance. I won't go into detail about it - but being jerked around by a dishonest car dealersihp, shorted by the payroll company, and dealing with depression are all at the top of the list (though by no means the whole of it). I'm just not finding any inner peace at the moment. I'm trying to be mindful and graceful, especially since this is all quite transient. But frankly, I'm strung out to my last nerve, and inclined to go slightly bonkers. And yet, going slightly bonkers won't help at all, so why let myself do it?
It's just been one of those weeks where anything that could conceivably go wrong, has - and nothing I've done to remedy things has had any results. At least I've gotten some good writing done - my review of "JPod" is going to be published, and last night I worked on the screenplay and got past a block that's had me stumped for a while. I also went back and neatened up the first act, and realized what I had down is actually pretty solid. That much, at least, I'm proud of, the week hasnt' been a total waste.
But tell me, friends - when you're beset by a cloud of a thousand embuggerances, and you're fed up to right behind your eyeballs, and you just want to scream and hit something - what do you do?
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I know where you're coming from - I've had my Rob Zombie playlist in near constant rotation lately because every single day lately has made me hopping mad. Hope things even out for you soon.
Or I rock.
Go for a stiff walk, hopefully ending up next to an ocean.
Or scream and hit things.
Then I generally breakdown and have a good, jaggy cry, eat some food I shouldn't, and take a long nap.
After that, I spend as much time with people I enjoy and things that delight me (such as the work "embuggerances" - which is fantastic), and focusing on the parts of my life that are less sucktastic) and give the crappy stuff only as much attention as they practically warrant.
Dancing alone in your room like a maniac is also recommened. (Buck of water suspended above a chair in the center of the room optional.)
I hope things pick up for you soon.
Then I drink a lot of Mt. Dew. But I always drink a lot of Mt. Dew.
Of course in the long run, all these things make me hate myself more. And of course they don't solve anything, although I do rack up impressive amounts of hours on video games (as you've seen). But as short term solutions go, they're not really self-destructive or cruel.
Scream and hit something soft several times, like a sofa. I then evaluate the situation(s), determine what I can control and what I can't, what time allows me to do immediately and tackle those first. If I find myself at a point where nothing I do right then will solve anything, I ignore the problems and do other things. It does no good to dwell on something you can't resolve right then. Might as well use that time to do something fun/interesting/productive on other fronts.
No. Really.
The husband prefers to climb Mt Verdugo (aka The Punishing Mountain)when he is feeling like pulling his hair out. Okay, actually, he prefers to get drunk and/or stoned but barring that, the Punishing Mountain.
1. Ice cream. Ice cream makes things better for a little while.
2. Go into Asshole mode. If I'm beset by too many things, there comes a breaking point where I say, "That's it! Unless it pertains to me, I have no time to deal with you because I need to handle MY shit." (You may have seen me do this a couple of times).
There are times when I have to be in a pissed off mode before I am in the mindset to prioritize and knock things out one by one. When I've done EVERYTHING I could, then I finally pass through most of my anger and let go because I've done something.
3. Then do something very nice for yourself. Intellectually, things will pass and will become better (as you already said) but that discounts how you feel at the moment. If it's not dealt with, it gets worse.
Go hit a punching bag, or a pillow, or something soft. Go run, or swim. Do something physical for the physical agitation, and something that demands concentration for the mental agitation. Most importantly, do something you enjoy.
Or, call someone and just vent. I essentially got fired by Kaplan the other night for not being especially good at something that I never claimed to be especially good at, and in fact never wanted to do (I wanted to tutor; it was them who decided they wanted me to teach *grumbles*). I was angry and frustrated and depressed about it. Ended up going over to my SOs and just ranting about it for about fifteen minutes. Then I apologized, saying he should've have to listen to that kind of crap from me.
He actually was hurt by the apology, telling me that to him part of being a friend was taking the bad with the good.
Given, I have listened to my friends rant about things that were totally out of either their or my control many, many times. But I didn't really expect anyone to want to return the favor. To quote: "I may have been mistaken."
So if you want to just rant, call somebody. Actually, I'd offer, but I'm not sure we know each other well enough that you'd be comfortable taking me up on that. But in general: it can make you feel better even if it can't solve the problem.
I'm so pissed off right now, I could swallow a cucumber and poop a pickel.
I'm sorry, because what I'm about to say if in no way helpful or relevant, but my gosh man - you are somehow *extra* eloquent when you're keyed up.
Oh, yeah.. also.. may I friend you?