There's no sense pretending I've got anything other than a broken heart right now. It'll be a long time before I can be vulnerable to someone again. I'm resolved not to meet anyone online again, either - someone who I'm going to open up to needs to know a lot more about me before I'll believe any promises she might make - and likewise, of course. Getting caught off guard these last couple of times has been, I think, a big part of why it's been so hard to move past.
Even so, I should be able to move past it. I'm trying to figure that out - make sense of why it's so hard. In the mean time, my friends, forgive me if I'm down. It'll get better eventually.
I'm going to take a long time just doing my own things, and feeling normal, before I take another chance.